feeling old?

Just turned 22. I've no idea what time exactly did I actually pop out of my mom's tummy but basically, I've lived 22 years on this planet. I'm not even gonna count the days coz it makes me feel so ancient.

But anyways, i think I'm liking it. I mean, we all grow older day by day, there's no reverse to it, unless you're living in a fantasy land like Benjamin Button. So, I'm taking it well.

Does it change me to a better person? Time will tell but as days go by, years go by, I think I am trying to be a better person. It's not gonna come easily, but trying is a good effort. A good start.

Does it make me more mature?
Yes, I really think so. Year by year you get to experience different things. Different emotions. Meet different people and it does make you more mature. This being my 3rd year, I do feel *old* and being a senior, it gives you a different feel as you mingle around your juniors. You feel superior but not to the point of being a stuckup.

Responsibility is increasing too. I so need to think of my future. I've been floating around in this vast sea for so long that I've somehow lost my direction but I guess, going with the flow doesn't sound too bad either. So, I'll see where it takes me.

Lastly, this is not an attempt to be written in this manner. I just turned 22, so spare me. *_*

I havent eaten birthday cakes for so long! I'm craving for one now.

Anyways, I just wanna say " I just turned a year older and I'm feeling great! lol" For a reason, I felt much better this time around than the years before, I don't know why. but that's a good sign, right?

cross the hurdle

today is a good day, at least for the later part of it when I managed to finally get some results for my thesis. It had been really frustrating over the past month as me and a friend (coz we do the same thing, just using different genes) so we were trying to do this one particular step which would have been a piece of cake for our seniors, but we were struggling through. We re-do the step for like * i lost count* maybe 5-6 times? And 1 time needs 2 days to finish.

It's exhausting. And today when I re-run my PCR (polymerase chain reaction) because I was hopeful that out of 7 of my colonies, there is bound to have at least one that is having my insert gene, which wasn't found yesterday. After running the gel again just now, the moment I saw 4 bright bands on the computer screen, my heart leaped! It did. I mean, imagine doing the same process for multiple times and getting nothing, it does take a toll on your mind and energy. spending hours in the lab hasn't been such a good experience either.

So, basically, this is a good news for me! I need to verify the presence of the insert gene though, that'll be next week. I hope everything will work well though. I seriously do not want to do any trnasformation again. (the word itself is making me have nausea).

So yay! as much as I really dread imagining myself dealing in this field of work in my future life, you can't deny the fact that when you actually got some result or cross the hurdle, you do feel good about it. It's like you accomplished something. That feeling is making me smile and wanna shout yay! at the end of the day. ^^

Well, here's to a better tomorrow and please, please...let my work get at least 70% done before I go back home.

the speed of byte

So I started DL this ep4 of JIN this morning around 7 am, then I went to lab a while to get some stuffs done, then came back around 9.30.

It's done! I was like wow...coz this is the first time it had ever been this fast. well, ocnsidering the size of the file is 404mb only, it's not that surprising but like yay! I'll have sth to watch for lunch later!

I need to go lab at 1pm though. Gotta do sth. Sigh...it's been tiring visiting the lab almost every single day. Even if it's only two more weeks that I finally got to go home, I don't feel the hype anymore. Last semesters were like " okay, 2 more weeks! counting down...yes yes...I can't wait"

This time around? It's like " Jeez...2 more weeks and I haven't even booked my ticket"

There's this uncertainty this time around. And somehow, it doesn't feel like it matters whether I go home or not. The scary part is this. I don't know why. It's like " I'm too tired to think about it. Just go with the flow and when the time comes, I go home."

Must be the tiredness that wears off the excitement. My next paper which is also the last, will be next Friday. Lots of chapters to cover and things to memorize but then again, any subject needs that right? It's just the level of difficulty to remember.

JIN [J-drama]

If there is one drama that exceeded my expectations for this season, no doubt this would be the one. I seriously had no interest in watching at all, well...because the male lead is someone I'm not familiar with to begin with and I only know Ayase Haruka and Koide Keisuke.

I was reading the thread in the forum on the shows showing now where I saw some really good reviews on the show, so I was like, well...why not try it out >.< See, I have no list of dramas to catch this season, except for Tokyo Dogs, that is only because it sounds pretty nice with 3 actors that I know of. Yes, this season's dramas seem kinda dry to me.

Anyways, i had a slight idea of what this drama is about. Basically this doctor (present day) Minakata Jin after operating on his girlfriend's brain tumor, left her in a vegetative state. That caused him to undergo depression and left him with no confidence to do much surgeries afterwards. One day, he met an unknown patient who had a brain clot/tumor in the form of an embryo (I know this sounds crazy and I have no idea whether this really happened in real life or not) so then suddenly, he was thrown back into the Edo period of Japan.

And there, he met Ayase Haruka and Koide Keisuke and people. And there begins his unexpected journey of regaining his confidence and use of medicine with anything he can get hold of during that period of time.

First episode review:

This will be a short review. It span for 1 hour 30 minutes. Happens for many Japanese series in the 1st epi. The one thing that got my attention was the introduction where this slow piano melody started playing and then a girl narrates. (I really want to know who it was that narrates, it might give a clue as to why the turning back into time thing happened to Jin) Maybe it's Ayase. I don't know. But I actually rewatched the intro part like...3 times! I just loved the intro! lol...

And we get introduced to the characters one by one...and stuffs etc. The 1st epi really is packed with action. Two traditional methods of surgery, with carpenter tools and yeah...@_@ I'd suggest not to eat anything while watching because i find the visual much more gross than CSI. Like for real. I can eat anything while watching CSI but not this. It is THAT GOOD. and gross lol...

And so far, there is no character that I hated! I like them all. So, this series really took me by surprise, it's so much better than Tokyo Dogs even. The later really make me roll my eyes most of the time and the episode just seem kinda messy. But this is good. I shall be watching JIN this season. I know I'll love it. And hopefully, please please......don't drain my tears again like how it did in the 1st epi xDD

fuck the college

for no water.

since last night around 10pm...till this morning (I woke at 8am+) luckily i managed to wash my face and all and then when I wanted to go boil water, it's gone.

till now ----> 12pm

I mean, to hell with all these inconveniences and to hell with all the facilities. I am in no way happy with it. Our college is the most expensive because it is the only one being half private. And rumor has it that it'll increase till RM13 per day next semester. Why?

Because oh they decided to shut down all the shops at the cafe and open only one huge one and serve meals where we buy using food coupons. thus, the price.

And where is the survey anyway rumored to have been done? Saying what....60% agreed with the monstrous idea? I would like to see the faces of those who agreed to this.

If this is true though, I shall move to other college or move out for the case. And to think that it will be our last semester of our final year, like what the FUCK?!

UPDATE: Apparently they posted up a notice saying that they have never stated that they will implement the rise. *meaning...it's all just a rumor* yes! so i can stay haha...it's my final sem after all, you know.

yes, I need a bath desperately now. The FUCK with the people who decided to cut off the water in the middle of the day. Why can't they do whatever they need to at night, midnight for that matter? Where are their minds attached to anyway? The BUTT? Oh I won't be surprised if it is so.

no sides taken

1. A friend is having her birthday tomorrow.
2. Another friend plans to go Chilis, Midvalley for a meal to celebrate.
3. Another friend (and few others) complained it might be a bit expensive to go there for a meal (20++ per person, campur tax= 30)
4. For me, I've been there, done that (remember my sis trip here a week ago?) I do have the reluctancy to go again (wanna try new place ma).
5. Original friend who plans then asked the rest to decide another place which everybody agrees.
6. One friend wonders if we can just go to her college and celebrate there (surprise her), it's cheaper, more convenient, and more people can actually attend (since by weekend, almost everybody's gone)
7. The end result?
8. Original planner sent sms asking me to collect from my friends who live in the same college to present $$.
9. I asked him the final venue and time.
10. His reply was definitely somewhat a joke (well, considering his good natured character) " Don't want let you gals go ^^"
10. So I replied " Ok, no prob, since I'm very tired after the lab works" (which is true).
11. The end? I take it we're not going anywhere. I don't know where they plan to go but I won't be surprised if they actually are just gonna give her a present and be done with it.


This is not a bashing post. I'm just blogging like I always do, so whoever stumbled upon this and knows what's happening, don't sue me or take any offense because I am not, for the record, not taking anyone's side. I'm just tired and if I was smarter, I shouldn't have spend those $$ for smses I sent around asking.

cleanup!

I just finished my 1st paper, not gonna comment much, just that I felt like I was writing the same thing over and over again and everything is just connected to each other...but like, there's no use crying over spilled milk. My mother has always given me the same advice ever since I was probably having my first ever test (could be in kindergarten even ^^) that whatever's done is done and after the exam or test, don't discuss it further. Concentrate in the next papers to come.

Until now, I still remember her words so clearly, each and every word because she never failed to give me that same advice everytime I have exams. It might sound like nagging to people where you know, mums do when they can talk about the same thing over and again till it just stays in your mind, subconsciously or not. They might not even sound important at first you know. And I admit I didn't take them seriously anyway until I actually felt that they are so true. I mean, like sometimes...you go " oh shit, why didn't I remember the answer to that? It was that simple!" or sth like that...

But at the end of the day, it's over. You can't go back in time, well, in fantasies maybe, but definitely not in reality, the world we're living in today, that's not gonna happen. So why bother worrying about that one thing that might affect the rest of your life? Or in my case, maybe my other papers to come. So, that's exactly why I never discuss about the papers or questions AFTER the exam. I seriously don't. And it helps you know. It's like what Tiing mentioned in her blog, sometimes it's better not to find out what could have been. It might just save us from regreting that certain thing our entire life or sth, which is to me, a total waste of time, when you have ahead of you, the REST of your life to make up to.

So anyways, after our lunch outside, I came back and started cleaning up. It's always nice to do that after one paper is done. It's like stashing them away and never to think back about it again. It's over. And I actually managed to dig out those past year papers form my previous semester and find out just how many space they actually took! It's like a whole bunch of them, just past years, not notes ok...and I never actually read or do them in the past even! Except for few when you hear rumors that they might be the same or similar. But the majority of them are different. So this time around, we actually didn't bother looking up the past year papers. So I basically put them aside into a plastic bag and then put them *nicely* at the garbage area of our block. I know the kakak will always recycle them. And I'm of course happy to help in improving our worsening environment xDD

One of the reasons I did this is because everytime after the semster is over, I had a hard time just finding space in my boxes to out my NEW notes. But thankfully, I only have 3 papers this semester so they're not gonna take much space. In that case, I'll be able to keep my boxes limited and no need to get a new one. They actually sell boxes in our college. Seriously. So..yeah. ^^

I should begin studying my Japanese, which will be next Tuesday. I have a week to study but I'll be spending some time in the lab so I should get a head start.

So, here's to a better day!!!